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Jyotirmoy Sil
The Last Soliloquy of a Poet before Lunacy
Jyotirmoy Sil

I have started hearing voices,
Some unknown barbaric smiles
Mock me in mysterious ways.
‘Out! Out! Spare me!’ I cried,
And yet,
Sometimes I succumb to intolerable silence.
‘Oh! Horror! Horror!’
I can sense a cobweb of the shadows
Looms large behind me,
Some strangeness is poisoning my sanity,
And haunts me in my deep dream,
Where the coils of smoke
That entangle the air like ever-expanding weed,
Transparently hide a malefic grin.
The faith that is falling like an old house,
Belief like the thorny shrubs that bleed the mind,
Rewind the gust of rain that I once restrained.
Amidst the wintry fog I see
The bewitching eyes that ensnared Macbeth.
I go deep into the mist grabbling,
Trampling on the dew drops in fallen leaves.
So, I lay dying hoping for the darkness to pervade my eyes,
Seeing the surreal images appearing and melting into nothing,
Succumbing into something deep,
Losing my self
Into deep…deep oblivion.

♣♣♣END♣♣♣

Issue 81 (Sep-Oct 2018)

feature MENTAL HEALTH
  • Poems
    • Amanda Basaiawmoit: An open letter to parents
    • Aseem Sundan: Drowning In Shadows
    • Ayushi Khemka: 9 AM Lamotrigine
    • Harnidh Kaur: In which little gods discover puberty
    • Jyotirmoy Sil: The Last Soliloquy of a Poet before Lunacy
    • Khushbakht Memon: Trigger
    • Mandvi Mishra: Mental Health in Today’s World
    • Riya Dogra: Curate
    • Sarba Roy: Doctor Vs Patient
    • Scherezade Siobhan: Radius
    • Sidra Amin: Untitled
    • Sivakami Velliangiri: Symptomatic
    • Tehreem Hassan: If Insanity were a Poem
    • Yogesh: I Guess
  • Fiction
    • Abhyuday Gupta: Field Notes
    • Dimple: Depression
    • Jyoti Verma: Deliberations of a Disease
    • Priyanka Das: An Abated Mass of Flesh
  • Reviews
    • Saroja Ganapathy: Shanta Gokhale’s ‘Rita Welinkar
    • Sushumna Kannan: Kate Millet’s ‘The Loony Bin-Trip
    • Vishakha Sen: The film ‘My Left Foot
  • Editorial
  • Editorial
  • Editorial